It Hasn’t Always Been Easy, But I’m Good

 

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By Anonymous

I’m a 32 year old Asian female.  I grew up in Oakland most of my life and have experienced so many tragic things in my life. I experienced the loss of friends and family at an early age, the lack of opportunity growing up in a low income family.  I have lived through the hardship of growing up as first generation immigrants with parents that did not want to understand. I have been, emotionally, sexually and physically abused but I am here.  It is a great testament to the resiliency of a human being and the help of therapists along my journey.

I’m not saying that my story is a happy ending but that you do have the opportunity to control your level of happiness in the life you lead.  If you have access to mental health-care, use it.  If you can afford mental health-care, pay for it. It has changed my life.  The events of my life do not define me but they have made me turn into the person I am today.  I am so grateful for that.  I am where I am meant to be, I have a beautiful 2 year old daughter that is loved and cared for beyond the stars and skies.  I am an awesome mother to her and a big part of that is because I do not let all those negative things interfere in my life, in our lives.

Life will always continue to test you, but it’s how you can cope with it that makes a difference.  I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, good or bad.  Control what you can, learn from your mistakes and always tell those you love that you love them. Find the one person in your life, it can be a friend or family member.  Someone that you can open up to and trust, someone that will not make judgments and will hold your hand through the worst, carry you when you don’t think you can move forward anymore.

I have suffered a lot in my life, but I am at a point in my life that I can see things much more clearly now.  I attempted suicide when I was 17, ended up in the ICU for 4 days.  I have battled through depression most of my life but my one thing honestly that keeps me going and makes me strive to become the best person is for my little girl.  I want to show her that no matter how hard life knocks you down, you have a choice to stand up and keep moving forward.  You can move forward with a great support system and love. Most of my friends don’t know any of the things I have lived through, they see me as this wonderful, loving, thoughtful person.  I’m good because I am a wonderful, loving, thoughtful person.  I do more for others than I do for myself.  I am just now learning to take care of myself first and everything will work itself out. Life is what you make of it and it can be incredible if you give yourself the opportunity. I am working on my Bachelor’s degree, expected graduation is next year. I have been married for a decade now.  I have a beautiful 2 year old that I love more than I could ever express.  I love to go fishing.  I see a therapist once a month. My life is good.

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